Hey Y'all,
Well What a week it has been! Can't
believe we are almost done with July already! Time is flying! Crazy to know
that my birthday is on Friday (in 4 days). Like I haven't been counting down
the days! This week we had no investigators to teach and spent lots of time
finding. We saw lots of less-actives though. I am not to big a fan of
tracting.
This week has been crazy and very
overwhelming. On Wednesday we had exchanges and of course I freaked out and was
really nervous. It was again GREAT! I never had gone on exchange with this
Sister before. (she was my sister training leader while I was in training back
in Garner). We had lunch with the four of us and then we went our separate
ways. I got to drive! It was weird driving after 6 months. Got to say I was
kind of worried that I may have forgotten some of the rules! haha! We did
Facebook so she could look at my Facebook and then we went to go visit some
Sisters. We got to one of the sisters and we talked. I got her to talk about things
that are happening with her and then we got to our Savior. She kind of got mad
at me and said something not nice. We again tried to get her to talk more and
she finally told us about what has been happening. She told us of an illness
she has and how it is slowly killing her. We told her that we may never know
why bad things happen to us, but it is all for our benefit. She liked what we
said and she finally opened up more told us that she is the only member of her
family and she has so much Family History she wants to do but she doesn't feel
like she can do it. she is willing to pay for someone to do it. We told her
that some members have family history callings and they there to help and they
can come to her house to help her. She was so excited and she wanted names and
numbers. We didn't have all of them but we told her that we would find some
more people. We talked about the Spirit of Elijah and how he will help her have
the motivation to do. We witnessed it right there at her home as she kept
asking questions. She brought up the fact that she has some family who she has
to ask and Sister Anderson gave her a great thing to say and she had her write
it down. The visit was good and I was so amazed as to her being open and
finally getting her to confide in us. It was a miracle!
Friday was the day we really went
tracking. Every door we knocked on and talked to were very nice, but of course
our last two of the night were the worst. One was telling us that we sinned by
adding scripture to what we already have and how that is affiliated. I wanted
to ask questions, but knew it would end in a contentious conversation and so i
just bore my testimony instead. The last one was the worst. She came to the
door and we talked about Christ and we asked if we could talk about him more
and she said I don't want a belief in him because of the life he has
given her and her family . And then she slammed the door. It was scary and I
was just kind of bugged by it and kept wondering what has happened to her and
why does she feel this way. Every step we took I wanted to turn right back
around but I knew she wasn't ready! I made sister Galloway pull over so we could
say a prayer for her. Halfway through the prayer I started crying and I really
can't explain it! It was crazy. This lady didn't understand the whole purpose
of life. We are given hard things to work for because God knows we can handle it
and even more so that we can grow and be better and accomplish all that we can
be! I felt bad for her and I prayed that someone who she would listen to would
explain it to her when she is ready. I couldn't explain why I was crying but I
think it is because I knew that the hard things in life are really for me to
benefit from and having that knowledge brought me peace. I felt the love of the
Savior as we sat in the car praying and talking. It was a very emotional drive
home! I am so grateful for the Enabling power that I can have hard times but
knowing that if I allow the Atonement in my life Christ will help me when I
feel like I can no longer move forward! Amazingly enough I have had thoughts
about all that I have accomplished here so far and I felt like I am failing. We
are struggling and it feels like I can give up but again God knew what I needed
and gave me an experience to that he is mindful of me and my efforts. I have
come across the scripture in Doctrine and Covenants 18:15-16 and it says that
if I bring one soul to repentance and to the Gospel it is all I am asked to do.
I felt that maybe even that one person can be myself. I can benefit from this
experience and I will be better. I can see the Gospel so much clearer than I
did 7 months ago. I know that I am changing and loving the teaching and Loving
my Savior so much more! More importantly in this scripture it is saying that if
I bring many souls then what joy should I be given. As long as I am that one
soul the many souls will come! What a great week and what a great time that I
am having! This transfer is coming to a quick end and we have no idea what is
going to happen! Either way I will continue to serve with all my heart, might,
mind and strength! I love the people of North Carolina!!!!! Have a great week!
Love you all!
--
Sister Tayler Farr
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